I'm so lucky to have such a supportive family. But, there comes a time when we need to change our plans for the good of the group. I feel that instinct. It's not easy. I think I need to pull out of the trip to New York City in August. It seems like the two trips already planned for the summer are more than enough already. It's a hard call to make. The energy I get from Teachers College in New York is not something I can put a price tag on. I just feel like my energy is needed elsewhere at that time. It's almost like too much dessert.
While I love my teaching, I am wondering about my writing, too. If I truly want to make a commitment to working on my writing more, I have to make the space in my life. Teaching is my career, my passion, my job, my calling. It will always be part of who I am. Living the life of a writer may also be a calling, a passion, a part of me I need to explore. So, prayerfully, I am considering the different decisions I need to make in my life to support this possible reality.
How funny. Last year at this time, all I wanted was to get into the reading workshop at the Teachers College. Now, somehow, it feels like it is not where I am needed in August. What an interesting turn of events.
I'm also thankful my colleague, Chris Working is such a supportive friend. Thanks for your understanding, Chris. I'm sure there will still be lots of learning we can share.
More learning to come. Where? Not so sure just yet.