Tough Decisions

I'm so lucky to have such a supportive family.  But, there comes a time when we need to change our plans for the good of the group.  I feel that instinct.  It's not easy.  I think I need to pull out of the trip to New York City in August.  It seems like the two trips already planned for the summer are more than enough already.  It's a hard call to make.  The energy I get from Teachers College in New York is not something I can put a price tag on.  I just feel like my energy is needed elsewhere at that time.  It's almost like too much dessert.

While I love my teaching, I am wondering about my writing, too.  If I truly want to make a commitment to working on my writing more, I have to make the space in my life.  Teaching is my career, my passion, my job, my calling.  It will always be part of who I am.  Living the life of a writer may also be a calling, a passion, a part of me I need to explore.  So, prayerfully, I am considering the different decisions I need to make in my life to support this possible reality.

How funny.  Last year at this time, all I wanted was to get into the reading workshop at the Teachers College.  Now, somehow, it feels like it is not where I am needed in August.  What an interesting turn of events.

I'm also thankful my colleague, Chris Working is such a supportive friend.  Thanks for your understanding, Chris.  I'm sure there will still be lots of learning we can share.

More learning to come.  Where?  Not so sure just yet.